Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Nonsense and a Philosophical Rant

So, I was going to write a long meaningful post tonight, but I think my mind has a different idea...sleep. When I see a fruit cup out of the corner of my eye and think it's a huge spider-it's definitely time to go to bed!

Here's the short version:

Lately I've been trying to get myself accustom to the idea that "we" can't always get exactly what we want in life. This is a pretty hard concept for me to wrap my brain around.

I not spoiled. And I haven't been given everything I've asked for or anything. It's just that my parents raised me with the attitude...if you want something than get it, work for it, it's possible. It's doable.

In fact, I've amazed people my whole life by getting stuff done that they didn't think was going to happen. It's a great philosophy...I love it. For the most part, it keeps me positive and ready for the next challenge in life.

However, what I'm learning is that, the philosophy has some flaws that there are really no way around. You can be chugging along...set path, set goal, going after what you want, doing what you want, and then life happens. People and/or circumstances get in the way. Then...it's up to you to make adjustments to your plan. Do you get what you want? Or even what you thought you wanted? Maybe some version of it, or maybe not. Depends on the circumstances in general and how you proceed.

I know I'm rambling, but this subject is hard for me. I wish sometimes that there was a clear cut instruction manual for life. You go through steps 1,2,3 and boom there you go end result A.

Does this make sense? Any thoughts?



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4 comments:

MYM said...

Ah yes ... that is what I learned in my late 20s. Life isn't about getting what you want ... it's about how you deal when you don't get it.

Jessica said...

Yeah, that is what I'm just starting to figure out. It's not much fun! :)

A New Yorker said...

Jessica, Most of my life was the way you describe. I suffered two great illness...will be happy to discuss offline if you want. See Barbara who has my contact info if you'd like...

After those experiences I started to look at things differently. In reading my blog you'll see I don't always achieve the goal each day, but I notice more often than not I do.

I realize now that I was not supposed to have those things and it was the universes way of making sure I stayed on THEIR course. I'll give you ONE example: I was a job hopper for a LONG time. Just couldn't find my way. I tried, I really did. I had goals or so I thought. I have the pass somewhere to prove this next sentence, 13 months to the day before the 9/11 attacks I interviewed for a job in the World Trade Center. I wanted that job. I thought it fit my personality. There were two tests I had to take. One was straight algebra which I got NONE correct and the other was logic where I got all correct. Thank goodness they didn't want a logical person. HA!

Sorry for such a long comment. Hope this helps you a little

Jessica said...

Lauren,
Thanks for this! :) I don’t mind that it’s long feel free anytime. And, sure, I would love to talk offline. It seems like we have a lot of the same opinions about things. That’s crazy about the job at the World Trade Center. I’m glad you didn’t get it either.

I agree with you though…I think everything in life happens for a reason. It’s just hard to accept sometimes.